Wednesday, August 5, 2009
twelfth [[cheater,cheater]]
once again with the hilariously awesome oh so perfect songs...
[[this goes out to all the boys that have cheated with a ...well, i'll let you figure that out when you listen to the song. but anyway, any guy that has cheated period.
joy of my life!
Joey+Rory's: Cheater, Cheater
they're quite funny, if i may say so myself!
eleventh [[No one falls out of LOVE by CHANCE, it is by CHOICE.]]
No one falls out of LOVE by CHANCE, it is by CHOICE.
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PERSON THIS IS INTENDED FOR…YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE:
I received this message [btwn the two dotted lines],…
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"I was emptying my inbox..n i came upon some stuff u wrote me..so here it is..n i thought we were "okay" last time we spoke? guess not..plz respond thow..i did send u a friend request..oh by the way my mom asked about u the other day, after all this time my fam still asks..
you've prolly read this 50 million times...but heres my version of it to you!:
Just some reasons why I fell in love with ______ ___...[[with inserts-in double brackets-that completely negate these reasons…or just because I felt the need for a bit of commentary]]
You waited for me when you found out I had a bf and weren't quick to push things [[yet, you couldn't seem to remember that I had a boyfriend…I had to tell you more than once…because you wanted me to answer that damn question—that was not in fact a yes or no questions at the time—you weren't quick to push things in the long run, like letting enough time pass before we actually started dating…but that week at camp with the question-asking, I finally answered with an explanation…]] ♥ You're always really sweet to me and never say mean things even if i do get frustrated with you at times [[oh wait, then you called me a bitch and also sent me: "I hope you know I'm the closest to perfect any guy will ever be. You can't do better than me. Good luck finding your perfect guy. I know you won't find him"]] ♥ You told me you loved me (and wrote me something really sweet for the first time) and didn't get mad when I didn't say it back at first [[and wanted to break up like two months later—bc you just couldn't take the distance anymore…but when the truth finally came out like a year later {when it finally ended} it was because there was someone else]] ♥ And...when I finally did, you said it back! ♥ This is really random, but you were willing to drive back to your house when you realized you'd forgotten my corsage for Homecoming ♥ You waited for me to get to Nac for your prom because I had a bowling tournament, and were late to your prom because of me...and almost missed the slideshow [[surprisingly enough you did this—but do you remember trying to talk me out of going?...i do. I'm not sure I even want to know the reason behind that one—I'm sure we can all figure it out.]] ♥ You've tried to stop cussing in front of me because you know I don't like it...even if every now and then you do slip...you usually manage to catch yourself [[you started "slipping up" more and more…and using other words that were just so freaking disgusting—"dick"? I mean seriously, c'mon.]] ♥ When I went to your Homecoming game all of your friends already knew who I was...not to mention your teachers, too [[this doesn't necessarily negate this one—but it has to do with that night. But, you tried to kiss me…we weren't official yet. I think I've learned my lesson with that one.]]♥ You also wanted to make sure that I wasn't freezing and that I was warm, so you kept offering to get your hoodie, or MORE hot chocolate (that was so freakin good btw) ♥ You tell me you love me even if I'm mad or upset with you for something, I love you, too! ♥ You're like the only guy that I can talk about "my wedding" to or anything about my future for that matter...and we can talk about our "love theories," too [[yet you had it in you to still suggest getting married in Vegas or at a courthouse! I'll leave it at that. You'll hear more about this further down.]] ♥ AND even if sometimes I think you weren't listening to me because I have to constantly repeat myself or answer the same question countless times, you can tell me things that I've said, and then with that, I know you must've been you do remember stuff that I remember only mentioning once, maybe twice [[see above. Wait, maybe it's because I did mention it more than once or twice]]♥ You randomly text me during the day if we haven't talked for a while, just to tell me you love me [[but when you wouldn't text or call it wouldn't just be for a day, it'd be for days sometimes weeks…honestly, I don't know how I let it last so long.]]♥ No matter how much I mess with you about your accent, you don't get mad...you just get back at me when I say something very country-esque... what can I say?, I guess you've rubbed off on me--but your accent is what makes you ______ ___ and only makes me love you even more... even if you do say books, boots, and Nac like a true East Texan [[and the "Mo"/"Marisela" thing…it's fine that you called me Mo, but when you are sitting here trying to get me back or have serious conversation, and you call me Mo instead of taking the time to write my name out…that makes me think you don't care. Like you don't have the time to type 6 more letters…what's suppose to make me think you'll actually have time for me/ to make things right.]] ♥
..yeah...the other day when I read you that one thing I wrote, I had this, too, but I decided to let you read it yourself instead...hope you liked it! i love you!
"Don't go for looks; they can deceive. Don't go for wealth; even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright. Find the one that makes your heart smile." [[you always try to throw these quotes back at me—yet they don't help you prove anything. With this one…the person has to make "your heart smile" all the time, or most of the time at least…but when that person makes it sad/angry and that reason (like when someone cheats) outdoes everything else…NEWSFLASH: that heart ain't smilin' no more! –now you can make the rest of the connection.]]"
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…and here's my response…:
[[I know how much you like to throw this quote back at me—though I still don't know why…but here goes…]]
"No one falls in LOVE by CHOICE, it is by CHANCE. No one stays in LOVE by CHANCE, it is by WORK. And no one falls out of LOVE by CHANCE, it is by CHOICE."
And the reasons I chose to fall out of love with ______ ___…:
- You cheated on me not once, not twice, but "not a lot" of times.
- You called me a bitch. Oh yeah, AND your logic makes no sense.
[Exhibit A: playboi_0675681 2:37 AM people have cheated when they loved sum1
eenymeenyminymo8
eenymeenyminymo8 2:38 AM that means they dont really love the person...if you really love someone you dont need someone else...not even in your weakest moments
playboi_0675681
playboi_0675681 2:39 AM well
playboi_0675681 2:39 AM idk what to say
playboi_0675681 2:39 AM guess it really is over then
eenymeenyminymo8
eenymeenyminymo8 2:40 AM you finally came to that realization?
playboi_0675681
playboi_0675681 2:41 AM oik
playboi_0675681 2:41 AM u dont have to be such a bitch
playboi_0675681 2:41 AM im sitting here pouring out my heart to u
playboi_0675681 2:41 AM and ur stompin on it
playboi_0675681 2:41 AM thanks
playboi_0675681 2:41 AM alot
eenymeenyminymo8
eenymeenyminymo8 2:43 AM think of everything you just said the next time you cheat on someone.]
- Everytime you've called and try to apologize/make amends/get back together…not only have you tried to guilt-trip me every single time or called me at like 4 o'clock in the morning—when I have to be up at like 6 or 7 that same morning….BUT you've also had a girlfriend EVERY SINGLE TIME!
- On the phone that one day:
o "I was young [first of all, young my butt…it was a freakin' year ago]…I wasn't ready for commitment, but I am now."
- Ready for commitment, seriously?!? How the hell are you ready for committment when you're calling me and trying to get back together ..while you have a girlfriend...???!! You're still cheating…that doesn't show that you've changed. You're still the same guy that can't manage to hold onto anything good that comes your way.
- Was/is it really that hard to just keep it in your pants for once?! Whether literal or not.. It's called temptation, say no!
- I know how much you love my "angry" songs—so here's one more…somehow I manage to find songs that are just oh so perfect—especially for what you did [[for this one, thanks Rihanna]]:
[Intro]
Ohh, how about a round of applause,
Yeah, standin' ovation,
Ooh ohh yeah, yeah yeah yeah yeah.
[Verse 1]
You look so dumb right now,
Standin' outside my house,
Tryin' to apologize,
You're so ugly when you cry,
Please, just cut it out.
[Chorus]
Don't tell me you're sorry 'cause you're not,
Baby when I know you're only sorry you got caught,
But you put on quite a show (oh),
You really had me goin',
But now it's time to go (oh),
Curtain's finally closin',
That was quite a show (oh),
Very entertainin',
But it's over now (but it's over now),
Go on and take a bow, ohh ohh.
[Verse 2]
Grab your clothes and get gone (get gone),
You better hurry up before the sprinklers come on (come on),
Talkin' 'bout girl, I love you, you're the one,
This just looks like the re-run,
Please, what else is on.
[Chorus]
And don't tell me you're sorry 'cause you're not (mmm),
Baby when I know you're only sorry you got caught (mmm),
But you put on quite a show (oh),
You really had me goin',
But now it's time to go (oh),
Curtain's finally closin',
That was quite a show (oh),
Very entertainin',
But it's over now (but it's over now),
Go on and take a bow, ohh.
[Bridge]
And the award for the best liar goes to you (goes to you),
For makin' me believe that you could be faithful to me,
Let's hear your speech out,
How about a round of applause,
A standin' ovation.
[Chorus]
But you put on quite a show (oh),
You really had me goin',
But now it's time to go (oh),
Curtain's finally closin',
That was quite a show (oh),
Very entertainin',
But it's over now (but it's over now),
Go on and take a bow.
But it's over now.
- Apparently I wasn't what you were looking for anyway, so much for you trying to make things better:
[Exhibit B: playboi_0675681 2:43 AM bye
playboi_0675681 2:43 AM and by the way atleat i still have sumones heart from garland
eenymeenyminymo8
eenymeenyminymo8 2:43 AM is it actually bye this time?
playboi_0675681
playboi_0675681 2:43 AM someone in garland still cares about me
playboi_0675681 2:43 AM yeah
playboi_0675681 2:43 AM this is goodbye
playboi_0675681 2:44 AM and i think u know who im talkin about
playboi_0675681 2:44 AM someone whos been waitin for me for 2 years
playboi_0675681
2:45 AM
got nothing to say now huh?
playboi_0675681 2:46 AM huh
playboi_0675681 2:48 AM Is that okay w/ u]
- You tried to get on me about my "YES" card that I gave to you when we first got together and other little random stuff I did for you …but you sure did like all those things when you got them, huh? How else do you explain that you just so happen to come across this stuff in the trunk of your car, like you've never opened it in a year!...or in your inbox or whatever. Maybe you should've taken some notes/come up with or use some of those ideas yourself. But no, no, ______ ___ couldn't do that. He was a romantic who always had ideas up his sleeve [as I remember from our first conversations at camp]. Hah. What a joke! It was a bunch of talk. All talk…and nothing to back it up with…When did you ever actually follow through?! –Except for the very first thing [Homecoming] – you never did. Every time we'd make plans or try to for holidays or weekends or whatever, I'd follow through on my end…convince my parents if it was necessary…but what did you ever do?!
- BUT one of the BIG deal breakers, aside from you not being able to keep it in your pants quite a few times…was when you had the nerve to say lets get married…lets go to Vegas and get married…and then when I laughed you said, okay, okay, we can go to a courthouse. Seriously…??! WTF? Did you really say that?! We dated for 2 years and you found it okay to say that? Did you ever listen to anything I said…like at all? One of the ♥ bullets in that message said you were like the only guy I could talk to about "weddings"…well guess what—I guess that was just a high school thing, because I college, I'm sure if you came across any of my guy friends, they could tell you that I sure as hell am not getting married in Vegas or a damn courthouse!! I'm not saying that I'm definitely going to have a wedding 100% according to my "planned out" one, but it's definitely going to take more thought than driving to a f^<%!* courthouse or resorting to the Britney Spears method that lasted all of 55 hours!
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I hope this said something to you. Maybe showed you my logic—the kind that actually makes a bit of sense. I didn't want to have to get this direct, but you felt that you could before, so I finally decided to go there. I was being nice at first, not getting anywhere near insulting…I decided I wouldn't be so mean and just say you screwed up. But you had to tell me I would never find anyone, and I held in what I really wanted to say to you for like a year because I didn't find it completely necessary to say—it's not like it'd change what you did, but… You know what happens when I hold things in. Eventually I'll just let it all out. Ew, that sounds kind of gross. But you know what I mean…and you know who I'm talking about. I don't understand how you just can't see that I'm telling you you messed up. Royally screwed up. It's too late. You can't fix it. And, like I've told you before:
[eenymeenyminymo8 2:28 AM move on. go to your dads or something. [which you did end up doing…so you can forget that part this time] start over. you know what youve done wrong, now dont do those same things again. rethink some stuff. Goodnight]
-MARISELA-
P.S. There are more bullets that I could add, but they were all included in the conversation that one day, so I didn't figure I needed to include them. But, if I realized I left anything out that was neither in the convo or this, it'll get added. I figured the convo that one day finally said something to you…but I guess not. Now what was so important that you needed to talk about?
